Story of February
IrnaMolly
The name is Irna
I am half of Han
I ADORE OWLS!
I don't care what you wanna say and Im not asking for your opinion about me
I skate on rollerblades and falling is just another bump on the ass. No Biggie.
I don't think Im a negative person and I dislike having negative people around me
Life is a journey full of missions and tough challenges
Bubblegums are heaven
Smoking is my hobby
Found the love of my life- Han Riley
Go ahead, poke the fire~
Green Tea is the shittttt
Big Girls Toys
My 'killer' stuffs by IrnaMollyfrom Han Riley
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Wednesday, April 7 @ 4:29 AM
hey.
been busy with alot of stuffs really.
making decisions and what not.
im just confused and furious right now.
confused for the fact that i cant make the decision and furious because somehow someone is a hypocrite.
whoever you think you are.
anyways, great effort my "friend".
nevertheless, im grateful.
grateful for the life im living in absolute guilt.
there.
now, my heart is beating so hard.
brain-iac
Friday, March 12 @ 1:08 PM
this is it. im not hanging on anymore. i dont think i have the strength to. if you love me, you shouldve let me be free. you saw how determined i was gonna leave. you told me you were hurt. you told me you give me evrything. you dont understand me or my feelings. i gave you everything! everything that meant the world to me, everything i never thought i could give. love and time thats what i meant. i gave you the time i spent with you. i gave you the love deep from my heart. you never saw it. you never trust me in the first place. you didnt give me a chance to do that at all. you said you sacrificed alot for me. well, i sacrificed the pain in my heart to be with you, to wait for you to change your ways. to forgive what you've done. to accept you for who you are. all i could ask for right now is just let me go.
through out the whole three years of being together, i felt that i was paid to do all the stuffs to make you happy, to listen to your every word, to do the things i dont want to. it is painful not to be loved- i understand that. i felt that before and it changed my perception of love. How do i know that youre the right guy for me? right now, i realised you tolerated with my nonsense and you know how i felt about everything except you.
why do you still love me when all this while you complain about me and what i did to you- like you, im confused too - confused with all the love you said you had given me when all i see around me are the things you bought for me. and you ask for all the things back whenever i made the decision to leave. and its not fair to me that i have to love you when eveyrthing else is about money. you said i owe you 5000 for all the things and food you bought throughout the 3 years and ordered me to pay you before you could leave so that it wont hurt you as much. not one bit i asked you to return back my life, not one bit i asked you to repay back my love. you always thought surprises will make me happy. you thought it WILL MAKE ME LOVE YOU MORE.
Please, im not here to have all that you had bought me. all i need is for us to be genuinely happy.
i never had to forgive anyone who did what my dad never even do to me. i never had to face my fears of being scolded, humiliated and teased in public. i never knew you love me that way.
i never even know that thats what you meant when you said you love me. dearest, maybe we lost our love and left it somewhere somewhat 3 years ago. i was never truthful to you, i was never the one you're looking for. i am not the girl you're suppose to love- im just myself. my life is never complete. my dreams will never come true.
honestly, i dont think we will get married one day. its just a big fat dream anyway.
but if one day, we meet again....
im happy for you being with someone else. not me.
the night rider.
Saturday, February 13 @ 3:08 AM
hey all. okay now i shall update! its been suchhh a loooong time right.
well, i've started working and im glad i did because i really need to earn some moolahs and not go on motherlode mode.
haha.
so then again, my pay is abt 3 times as much Han is earning, so that's basically my initial plan to buy him things that he wanted for years. so then again, its tiring and because its February... gong xi gong xi sale is on. soooooooo much tiring then normal days. and lucky me, tmrw is my off day. till monday. rest rest rest and chill.
we did not celebrated Vday this year, basically because it sucks to be going out when the shopping centres are half closed. bugger. My eldet brother asked Han to tag along for soccer at The Cage Kallang. So we went there by cab and home by bus to Dhoby, fetched bro's gf at Sentosa, then to Yishun by train and then cabbed home bfore the two of them basically did not even sleep due to the SNIPER Game they are playing. and me, since mum have sooooo much beads to spare... i did quite alot of bracelets today. and Peace Signs. parents together with my younger sister and my maid went for a holiday... -balik kampong at Muar and second bro is away shooting somewhere at Msia. so the house is kecohrable with Han and big bro playing the entire day! haha. right now, im sleepy as can b waiting for Han to stop 'gaming'.
cant wait for pay day!!!!
until then, dozing off and out! peace!