you. i love you. for all the things you've done for me. for all the shit you put me thru. people say im lucky to have you but they dont realise is how lucky for you to have me. im not bragging about me but take a look and see how many have left you hanging? not me, not me definately. you told me how easy my life will be being with you with all the stuffs you bought with hard cash for me, i don't need your sympathy to buy the things my parents can't afford. i complain too much to you and make you feel im hinting something. im not. i just need you to listen to me, be my listening ear. i need you to be my boyfriend and also my friend. i need your company. but everytime i tried to hold your hand or kiss you unexpectedly, you move away and let go of my hand aggressively. now im confused. you need me to be with you all the time but when i need you, you weren't there. i don't mean money wise. i meant, the four letter word with 2 vowels in it. LOVE. you say i don't recit Love to you but i swear i did say I LOVE YOU. Nevertheless, i keep it inside to make me calm and chill just wait and see. i hate it when you said i can't live without you, so should i prove it to you? and the fact that you turn things around on me whenever its your fault that we fight, you bring all my past to me and make me feel so fucking guilty. i've learned all that for the past 19 months or so. i keep enduring what i have to and have faith that things could work out better. im sorry if i post this on my blog, the reason is i wanna find out how many people felt what im going thru with you. till then, nothing will change even my love towards you will remain___________unless otherwise happens.