Story of February
IrnaMolly
The name is Irna
I am half of Han
I ADORE OWLS!
I don't care what you wanna say and Im not asking for your opinion about me
I skate on rollerblades and falling is just another bump on the ass. No Biggie.
I don't think Im a negative person and I dislike having negative people around me
Life is a journey full of missions and tough challenges
Bubblegums are heaven
Smoking is my hobby
Found the love of my life- Han Riley
Go ahead, poke the fire~
Green Tea is the shittttt
Big Girls Toys
My 'killer' stuffs by IrnaMollyfrom Han Riley
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Sunday, October 5 @ 1:31 AM
To me, my relationship with Han was pretty ugly. I appreciate everything he had done for me. He pays for my bills and even fork out for my school money. My parents adore him and thats one of the reasons I wanna keep us alive. Because I wanted my parents to trust him. Infact they already did. Just the other day my dad saw us holding hands and we didn't let go even when he greeted us. I was shocked because my dad handles things quite well you see but I sincerely did not expect dad to actually smile at us and even asked where are we heading to. I am not a trustworthy person myself so God knows how nerve wrecking it is to bump into my dad.
Han declared to me the other night that its not him thats been harsh and all hot headed but his mind've been playing with him for these past months we were together. He teared upon telling me how hard it is to fight with his negativity thoughts all this while. Well, its time for you to stand up for your sef Han. Sigh. I couldnt stand him controlling my life and my friends. I don't wanna be flirtatious and all sort but I just wanna be me. The fun, cheerful person I use to be. Its not that Im gonna date my friends. How could you possibly understand? I don't blame him for being harsh/rude/selfish towards me because honestly, sometimes I needed to be 'told' off. Of course I need him to be here for me. To stand upon me. To guide me. To pamper me. I scolded him too many times these past months because I thought it'll be a great idea if I do that so he will get hurt for whatever reason he did the same thing to me. But I've learnt to not fight FIRE with FIRE. There was once he scolded me all around which left me crying silently but my heart spoke to me to let it go. Just swallow. I did. It was gruellingly hard to do so. Feels like you have to gulp two painkillers at once. Damn it got stuck in my pipe. Who cares about the damn painkillers! Well frankly, I always blame myself for this ugly relationshp especially when you thought you did something right but its actually really really the opposite. Sucks, I know.
I wouldn't even wanna complain about Han here just because I lost him. I mean it really. We've come a loong way. Its annoying for sure but maybe this is the best for both. Double Sigh. But people, if only you knew the entire story. Judge me. Got labelled Bitch by ____. You have no idea that I've got thru hell on Earth yet I still have faith. & now you're bailing out on the gig. Carry on now. TRUTH: I can't handle this alone. but I know I have to.
I've tried my hardest to go thru thorns and roses with you, I did.
Han declared to me the other night that its not him thats been harsh and all hot headed but his mind've been playing with him for these past months we were together. He teared upon telling me how hard it is to fight with his negativity thoughts all this while. Well, its time for you to stand up for your sef Han. Sigh. I couldnt stand him controlling my life and my friends. I don't wanna be flirtatious and all sort but I just wanna be me. The fun, cheerful person I use to be. Its not that Im gonna date my friends. How could you possibly understand? I don't blame him for being harsh/rude/selfish towards me because honestly, sometimes I needed to be 'told' off. Of course I need him to be here for me. To stand upon me. To guide me. To pamper me. I scolded him too many times these past months because I thought it'll be a great idea if I do that so he will get hurt for whatever reason he did the same thing to me. But I've learnt to not fight FIRE with FIRE. There was once he scolded me all around which left me crying silently but my heart spoke to me to let it go. Just swallow. I did. It was gruellingly hard to do so. Feels like you have to gulp two painkillers at once. Damn it got stuck in my pipe. Who cares about the damn painkillers! Well frankly, I always blame myself for this ugly relationshp especially when you thought you did something right but its actually really really the opposite. Sucks, I know.
I wouldn't even wanna complain about Han here just because I lost him. I mean it really. We've come a loong way. Its annoying for sure but maybe this is the best for both. Double Sigh. But people, if only you knew the entire story. Judge me. Got labelled Bitch by ____. You have no idea that I've got thru hell on Earth yet I still have faith. & now you're bailing out on the gig. Carry on now. TRUTH: I can't handle this alone. but I know I have to.
I've tried my hardest to go thru thorns and roses with you, I did.
Note to self: Keep going strong
Take Care of yourself;
The memoirs will be kept deep in me.
I love you, with all my heart
Please eat right.
Have enough sleep.
Keep making music.
Keep flashing your smile.
Stay the way you are,
Cheeky as ever you will be.
The memoirs will be kept deep in me.
I love you, with all my heart
Please eat right.
Have enough sleep.
Keep making music.
Keep flashing your smile.
Stay the way you are,
Cheeky as ever you will be.
Muah Love.
Make me vanish.
Poof!
Make me vanish.
Poof!